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February 22nd, 2010 at 08:00 pm

...thats how I am starting to feel.

I applied for Art school. Yes, Art school. I was accepted. I have always been artistic in the sense that I'm extremely imaginative and to the point of a day-dreamer. I do have artistic talent beyond that. I am currently work as an accountant contractor. I hate it. I can literally say I hate it. I've just started out in the field and the more experience I get the further I just want to run. It shouldn't be this bad and I'm too young to be so bitter. I stay up really late at night because I don't want to go to sleep because that means morning will come faster. Or I can't even enjoy the weekend because I'm so distracted with work and the thought of Sunday makes me cringe because I will have to go to work the next day. The thing is I don't know how I even came up with the idea about going into the accounting and finance. I mean personally I do enjoy it, but that is just managing my own books. But the dreamer in me wants to do something I'm extremely passionate about. So I casually brought it up that I wanted to go to art school and the first question was "how much is it going to cost." I guess a logical question. The thing is, I'm not asking anyone else to pay for it. If I have to take out another student loan I will. But the thing it is so annoying that my own family would rather have me suffer daily going to a job that I can't stand to save my life rather than working a little bit harder and going after what I really want. So, now I am just going back and forth between what I want to do and what I should do. I'm on the fence.

8 Responses to “Discourged”

  1. mjrube94 Says:

    Wow, that's a tough spot. As someone who makes a living in the finance world, I know it's not the most exciting place to be. LOL!

    Can you teach art for a few extra bucks? My son takes an art class in this lady's basement. She has 6 kids or so, and charges each $17/hour. He loves it and she's pulling down some decent cash. Or Community Schools may allow you to teach a class? By doing this at night or on the weekend, you'll see if you really like being around it all the time, while also saving cash to help pay for school. Good luck!

  2. monkeymama Says:

    " But the thing it is so annoying that my own family would rather have me suffer daily going to a job that I can't stand to save my life rather than working a little bit harder and going after what I really want."

    I think this describes just about everyone I know. Very common anyway. I am so peeved at how much my spouse still cares what his family thinks about what HE should do with HIS life. But I can see it is very hard when you don't have your family's support.

    Usually there is middle ground. Like, a lot of artist types don't have any business sense (I see with my spouse's friends, etc. He is very artisitic but practical, and has a business degree. In the end he has seen some niches that he could be filled - combining his degree and training with his passion). You will figure something out.

  3. LuckyRobin Says:

    If art school is what you want than do it. Speaking as someone who went back to school to do something else because I ended up absolutely hating the first thing, it was 100% worth it. Sometimes people don't want to see you happy because they're not happy, but they don't have the gumption to do anything about it and seeing you do it will just make them feel worse about themselves. It happens a lot in families. Do what is best for you.

  4. creditcardfree Says:

    Definitely stand up for you! Other people can't know how you really feel about your current job, even when you describe it as you do...only you really know. You will be more unhappy if you don't do what is right for you. Please don't stay in your current job to make others happy. It will only make you unhappy. Those naysayers will get over it. Really.

  5. ceejay74 Says:

    Look, if you're realistic about how much debt you'll be adding and you have a plan to work even harder to handle it, there's no reason you shouldn't pursue what you love! I think the problem with people suddenly dropping everything for a passion is that they get themselves in deep debt with no thought about how it's going to affect their lives down the road.

    I thought about this recently because of creditcardfree's question about how we paid for college. I went to a liberal, writing-and-philosophy based small liberal arts college that didn't give me any tangible job skills. But some things are soul-satisfying in a way that doesn't have to make financial sense--as long as you are willing to handle the financial consequences.

  6. nmboone Says:

    I know exactly how you feel not liking work. I hate my job and it's starting to make me mentally depressed. There's no aspect of my job that makes me happy at all. So I really hope that you can figure something out! As for me, I'm hoping to go back to school soon as well.

  7. Joan.of.the.Arch Says:

    MY DH is an artist, too, and he was persuaded in his early years to go into a field of work that interested him, but was not his passion. His very persuasive family did not think he could make a living in the arts. Well, they were wrong. His art has been his bread earner, and his the field in which he has a degree has been nothing to him. Like monkeymamma's DH, mine is also rather technically oriented and so he has been able to do many things that those around him have not. If you have both the artistic leanings and an ability to tackle stuff like numbers, I think you can possibly find a niche out there that is just waiting for someone like you. I would encourage you to look further into your possibilities.

  8. -Jerry- Says:

    We moved overseas so that I can pursue my educational goals, and that decision would lead to a lot of people telling us (or telling others) that we were crazy. Well, crazy or not, we are making it happen, and it has been a great experience so far. The only insurance we have of achieving our dreams is to actually pursue them, so I give you props for going after it! Good luck...

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